It’s that time again! Where has the year gone? It feels like just yesterday I was writing a Thanksgiving post listing some of the things I wanted to show gratitude for. So here we are, and once again, I want to shift my mindset from things in my life that I don’t like, to the things I’m thankful for.
I Have a Job
This time last year, I was in college, with no income besides the housing stipend I received through the GI Bill. It was enough to get by, but it certainly wasn’t the same as income from a full-time job. One of my biggest fears once I got close to graduating, was that I would spend months searching for a job and fall further behind financially.
Fortunately, I started the interview process for my current job just a week after graduating and received an offer a month later. As I’ve settled in, it’s not the “dream job” I thought it would be…but that’s not a bad thing.
I’ve grown to realize a lot of milestones in life are romanticized, i.e., finding the perfect partner, the dream job, the dream house. But a dream is just that: a dream. In reality, these dream scenarios come with the flaws and quirks of other human beings around us, as well as the realities of our own flaws and emotions.
There are days at work when I’m tired, stressed from outside factors, or just don’t feel like sitting at my desk for several hours. None of that is “dream-like,” but it doesn’t mean I need to quit and start the search for a new job. It’s in my field, I’m doing what I like, I get along with my co-workers, and it pays well. I keep that in mind even when I’m having a bad day because those few factors are more than enough to be grateful for.
I’ve Been Blogging for a Year
Of many accomplishments I’ve had in 2018, I’d have to say the one I’m most proud of, is hitting the one-year mark on my blog. It’s been a challenge to come up with new post ideas and learn how to market myself, but it’s also been a lot of fun!
I’ve met lots of other bloggers, figured out my personal style/tone, and watched the website grow. And when I say grow, I’m not just talking about page views or followers. I’ve read some of the old content on here and can see how I’ve evolved from the first post. It’s nice to have something in black and white as proof that I am changing for the better, and I’m excited to see what it will look like this time next year.
I Finally Got My Degree
Another big accomplishment this year was walking across the stage to receive my bachelor’s degree in May. Although my reasons for completing my degree have changed since I started college more than 10 years ago, it was still a big moment for me.
Being done with undergrad after all these years was the end of all the sacrifices, setbacks, and feelings of not being good enough. It’s been a huge weight off my shoulders and it’s one less thing to doubt myself for not having obtained yet.
I’m Learning to Be Comfortable with Myself
Speaking of doubting myself, this is something I have done my whole life. Even this year, while I’ve been crushing goals left and right, I’ve still had days when I questioned if I was doing “enough.”
Although I haven’t completely mastered the art of dismissing self-doubt, I am trying to be more intentional about being okay with where I’m at. Yes, there are things in my life I want to improve on, but those things don’t diminish who I am. It’s an ongoing process but I think even recognizing the need for a change of mindset is a step in the right direction.